life is...

...living inside an invisible cage...
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born in a family
who never wanted me.
still they laugh
and tell stories about things
i never did
or just wanted to forget...

when i was born
they put thin twines on me
strong like chains
that signalized
i could never be free
as long i was there...

when i grew up
i always lived in fear
every day.
"the pain may pause
but it never goes away"
i got scars
and you would think
they made me stronger,
but they didn't...

when i began to hope
wings came out of my back
and when they saw them
they ripped the left out
to make me unable to fly...

when i was born
it was narrow
i was near to death
but sometimes i ask myself
if it would have been better
if i never came out
of my mothers body alive
when they hate me that much...

bwn